Moses stands as one of the greatest leaders in Bible times. Being raised among the elite class of the house of Pharaoh, Moses was accustomed to operating in man’s system of power and authority. It’s not surprising therefore, to see Moses taking justice in his own hands and killing an Egyptian. As long as Moses saw himself as “ruler and judge” (Exodus 2:14), he wasn’t ready to be a part of God’s plan to deliver Israel; he needed to go through God’s process of submission.
40 years exile in the wilderness of Midian, transformed Moses self-will into surrender; No longer is he going out on the mission on his own, but he’s being sent in the authority of God: “This is what you are to say to the Israelites: ‘I am has sent me to you.’”(Exodus 3:14). No longer is Moses operating in his own abilities, but henceforth, the very words and works of God will be made manifest through Him. No longer is Moses the administrator of punishment, but rather an intercessor pleading, and willing to risk his own salvation on behalf of the guilty (Exodus 32:32). In Numbers 12:3, we read of the testimony God gave of Moses; that he was more humble than any other man on the face of the earth.
When we find ourselves defeated, disillusioned and discouraged, it’s because we have substituted our call as servants for a position of savior. The vision may have been revealed, but the worker is not ready, until he or she submits to the process of God’s discipline, and emptying of the self. As the song goes, “we have nothing to bring but empty hands.”